Ahad, 29 Mei 2016

I am sorry

Through all these 7 years
All these things that I kept from you
Doors to doors
I keep it closed

Couldn't find the courage
To face you right there and then
Staring at your picture
And here I say

Im sorry for having feelings for you
Im sorry for keeping this too long
Im sorry for liking you and your inperfections
Im sorry for not telling you
Im sorry for having hopes for us
Im sorry I've spent my life thinking about you
Im sorry for not having the guts to look at you in the eye
Im sorry for being me
Im sorry for watching you from far
Im sorry for thinking you might know me
Im sorry for being such an imbecile
Im sorry for keeping it from you
Im sorry for everything
And Im sorry for loving you
For long

I do not know how to face you in the future
Like a secret box, i keep you there un my heart
Always.

You are the best memories that I have.

Khamis, 28 April 2016

End it

You got me wonder
You look so fine
An okay
A plus actually
Because all I see
Is only your pictures and posts
Comments and responds
Likes and replies

Because all I see
Is what you display on screen
Portraying the best side to be seen
For people like me
So you got me wonder
What are you like behind those screens

Who's been typing?
What's in the mind?
How bout the feelings?
And where on earth are you?

Feeling dread on knowing you
Like I know but I don't
So close yet so far
Touched but untouched
Together and separated
This friendship or whatsoever it is
Like a long thread hanging with no ends
Cause you got me thinking deep
The true and truly side of you

Because I really want to know you.

Jumaat, 8 Januari 2016

Terpendam

Pagi ku riang
Siang ku terang
Malam ku kelam

Dunia aku berputar pada waktu yang sama
Tak dapat ku fokuskan pada yang lain
Kau terlalu mengisi hati aku
Kau yang bermain di minda aku

Aku cukup senak
Semak
Rimas
Lemas

Cukuplah!

Buatkanlah aku lupa!

Tak pernah tercipta sejarah antara kau dan aku
Tak pernah walau seurat ayat
Tak pernah

Tapi bertahun aku di situ
Terperap terpendam
Terperuk dengan perasaan sendir
Kau tak pernah tahu!

Hidup aku tak pernah berhenti,
tanpa mimpi-mimpi penuh harapan
angan-angan senyum siang
tentang kau.

Aku ingin luahkan.
Tapi aku tak mampu.

Aku pasrah.
Tapi aku sakit.